I'm currently working on someone's wedding... and as I usually do, I just let my mind float from image to image. Now don't worry, I'm looking at things as I should, light, balance, etc... but my mind just dances from image to image.
What I'm about to type is likely a wrong thing to post... but I'm going to do it anyway. I enjoy the power I have as a photo-tag. Now it's not power in the muhahah I will end you kinda way... but it's power in stopping time.
I'm not afraid to die, I never will be, I'm afraid of not being alive. I don't have time to do what I want, to learn what I need to and/or want to, nor to meet enough, see enough, be enough. Through my work and my music I can allow time to be stopped, that moment where you looked into your now husband's eyes, that wave of emotion, I just caught that. That's what I want to do... for me.
What you just read is 100% correct... it's what I want to do for me. I want to play music, I want to show you pain, I want you to hear bliss, I want to invite you away from life for a while... In the end we all seem to want to "get away"... we drink, we complain, we vacation, we sleep in... but really what do we want?
To be a part of something bigger.. and in the end, the irony of it all, is we just may be and not know it...
Turn it up... I promise it will be worth listening to....
Mouse
PS: Yes that was ADD, and that's how my mind works.. scarey eh?
Saturday, July 17, 2010
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
Here's the scoop
So I have forever typed from what I thought... which is ADD at best and a spider tripping on acid at worst but here's another entry into the fray.
I have been on the road the last couple of weeks. To say "on the road" is conservative... not tea-party hate brown people conservative, just not as extreme as that last statement... So my writing has suffered.
I fully realize why I put this blog together, and now I fully realize what I want to do with it. I want people to be entertained by my drivel. This will be short, but this is what I mean.
I have said that if I wanted to be like any race car driver, I would be like my pops, AJ Foyt (anything any time the guy would win), or like Gary B. Took what he had and made it work. As a musician... Warren Haynes, or Frederic Yonnet... Warren because of his humble skill and the ability to move people, Yonnet because he is the best at what I "think" I can do. Finally, I get to the point... I want to write like David Sedaris. Yes.. The "this American Life" guy. Which brings me to this blog.
I WILL be political here... as I will be opinionated. More than that, I want this place to be a sounding board of thought. I may, if I'm brave enough, start writing narritives about society. Then again, I may realize that is far to deep for a guy that finds joy in holding his wife, organic plants and playing the blues. Regardless of my thoughts... I need to write more, and this WAS after all the purpose of THIS blog.
What I'm saying is, I guess, that I want to write, I want you to read.. and I would like feedback in all of this. I guess that's Blogging eh?
Keep the shiny side up folks.
Mouse.
I have been on the road the last couple of weeks. To say "on the road" is conservative... not tea-party hate brown people conservative, just not as extreme as that last statement... So my writing has suffered.
I fully realize why I put this blog together, and now I fully realize what I want to do with it. I want people to be entertained by my drivel. This will be short, but this is what I mean.
I have said that if I wanted to be like any race car driver, I would be like my pops, AJ Foyt (anything any time the guy would win), or like Gary B. Took what he had and made it work. As a musician... Warren Haynes, or Frederic Yonnet... Warren because of his humble skill and the ability to move people, Yonnet because he is the best at what I "think" I can do. Finally, I get to the point... I want to write like David Sedaris. Yes.. The "this American Life" guy. Which brings me to this blog.
I WILL be political here... as I will be opinionated. More than that, I want this place to be a sounding board of thought. I may, if I'm brave enough, start writing narritives about society. Then again, I may realize that is far to deep for a guy that finds joy in holding his wife, organic plants and playing the blues. Regardless of my thoughts... I need to write more, and this WAS after all the purpose of THIS blog.
What I'm saying is, I guess, that I want to write, I want you to read.. and I would like feedback in all of this. I guess that's Blogging eh?
Keep the shiny side up folks.
Mouse.
Thursday, February 25, 2010
WTF
As I sit today in front of the keyboard, I have cubic shit-tons of things running through my head. The primary stuff I cannot write about, which I need to write about, but can't. So your getting this random smatter about politics and the life.
It's amazing to me, in this day in age, that people can still be manipulated to believe a certain way based on things that are purely not fact. Moreover, I'm scared of that. Scared, shit... downright panic stricken.
I believe in America, well at least I used to. Growing up in an environ that saw me as a minority, I never thought differently of people. There are good and bad amongst all of us, no matter the race color or creed. To me, we are all on the journey, and to the betterment of my life that I understand those around me that are in the game as well.
Recently, I have been brought to ponder why the actions that one can observe are taking place. Government is at a stand-still, anything the current president does is ripped to shreds, even when he flat out purposes plans that the minority suggested in the first place. I will site a couple of quick examples here but I'm in no mood to go in depth about stuff. I'm more just blathering for those that want to read something besides what they should be reading. (psst.. thanks for reading) (pppppssssttt this will be a quick one promise)
1) Guy bitches about the US, flys a plane into a government building in an attempt to kill people as a statement against out country. Remember 9-11? Same thing... Only this guy is a hero. The right has hoisted him up as a savior rallying against Obama and his Tax America Policy. Oh yeah... He was White.
2) The Tea Party. Seriously people? Where were the rally's when good ol Dubya was waging a war based on lies? THOSE were your "tax dollars" as well. See point 1, but again we pointed out, along with the majority of the world, that Iraq had nothing to do with it... but thanks to Fox News, to this day 37% of the people still feel Saddam was behind 9-11.. Including Sarah Palin who was NEARLY THE VP? All of this talk about how bad Obama is on Spending, and the Health Care mess, all against their own self interest... and even questioning if he was born in the USA. No one seems to care that McCain was born in the Panama Canal Zone. Oh yeah... He's White Too...
3) Sarah Palin... Really?!? My only statement on this situation is that you call for Rahm to be fired for using the word "Retard" in a private meeting... But when Rush uses it... and directly refers to those that are disabled, it's Satire. Wait... Oh Yeah. He's White. Wait.. So is Rahm.. But he does have a non-American sounding name. Guilt by association with Obama?
Here's the closing of my rant. I voted for Obama, not because he was anything BUT the best person to do the job. I didn't drink the kool-aide.... I knew going in he was a centrist. I also am not looking to stir the pot of racial tensions... well perhaps I am. This country still has a major problem with Race. I suppose I would just be happier if the bastards that have an issue with it would just out and say it. At least then we would know why you stand where you stand, and why you are willing to destroy this nation with division by stoking irrational fear, rather than believe in the principles the country was founded on and hope for a better tomorrow. All I'm asking is for is you to say up front... Hi, I'm Glen Beck, and I'm this way because I cannot stand the fact that we are being led by a Black Man. Say it Sarah... you know it's what your thinking, your actions are clear. Do us all a favor Fox, just run on your little bottom line what you get behind closed doors... Ruin this great man, or we might have to deal with a Chicano next.
Til next time....
It's amazing to me, in this day in age, that people can still be manipulated to believe a certain way based on things that are purely not fact. Moreover, I'm scared of that. Scared, shit... downright panic stricken.
I believe in America, well at least I used to. Growing up in an environ that saw me as a minority, I never thought differently of people. There are good and bad amongst all of us, no matter the race color or creed. To me, we are all on the journey, and to the betterment of my life that I understand those around me that are in the game as well.
Recently, I have been brought to ponder why the actions that one can observe are taking place. Government is at a stand-still, anything the current president does is ripped to shreds, even when he flat out purposes plans that the minority suggested in the first place. I will site a couple of quick examples here but I'm in no mood to go in depth about stuff. I'm more just blathering for those that want to read something besides what they should be reading. (psst.. thanks for reading) (pppppssssttt this will be a quick one promise)
1) Guy bitches about the US, flys a plane into a government building in an attempt to kill people as a statement against out country. Remember 9-11? Same thing... Only this guy is a hero. The right has hoisted him up as a savior rallying against Obama and his Tax America Policy. Oh yeah... He was White.
2) The Tea Party. Seriously people? Where were the rally's when good ol Dubya was waging a war based on lies? THOSE were your "tax dollars" as well. See point 1, but again we pointed out, along with the majority of the world, that Iraq had nothing to do with it... but thanks to Fox News, to this day 37% of the people still feel Saddam was behind 9-11.. Including Sarah Palin who was NEARLY THE VP? All of this talk about how bad Obama is on Spending, and the Health Care mess, all against their own self interest... and even questioning if he was born in the USA. No one seems to care that McCain was born in the Panama Canal Zone. Oh yeah... He's White Too...
3) Sarah Palin... Really?!? My only statement on this situation is that you call for Rahm to be fired for using the word "Retard" in a private meeting... But when Rush uses it... and directly refers to those that are disabled, it's Satire. Wait... Oh Yeah. He's White. Wait.. So is Rahm.. But he does have a non-American sounding name. Guilt by association with Obama?
Here's the closing of my rant. I voted for Obama, not because he was anything BUT the best person to do the job. I didn't drink the kool-aide.... I knew going in he was a centrist. I also am not looking to stir the pot of racial tensions... well perhaps I am. This country still has a major problem with Race. I suppose I would just be happier if the bastards that have an issue with it would just out and say it. At least then we would know why you stand where you stand, and why you are willing to destroy this nation with division by stoking irrational fear, rather than believe in the principles the country was founded on and hope for a better tomorrow. All I'm asking is for is you to say up front... Hi, I'm Glen Beck, and I'm this way because I cannot stand the fact that we are being led by a Black Man. Say it Sarah... you know it's what your thinking, your actions are clear. Do us all a favor Fox, just run on your little bottom line what you get behind closed doors... Ruin this great man, or we might have to deal with a Chicano next.
Til next time....
Thursday, December 24, 2009
On this the Eve...
Fellow blog followers,
Yes... Yes I know. I should be writing more often... and actually this is why I started this. To give a vehicle to my thoughts. The reality? I've had no thoughts over the last umm days. Ok That is a lie... I've had as many thoughts as the LHC has produced power... Blog about that later.
So for this post, I offer some not so simple thoughts about the season....
It's no longer about the holiday.. I know that will upset some of you... the majority of you are Christian, or believe in the holiday season. Ju$t a hint about what it ha$ become.. it$ about well... commerce. Very very few people these days, and you have exceptions to the rule, no questions, but the majority is what you get... not what you give.
So I blog tonight with a simple message, one that may, or may not, resonate to the masses... but a message I really don't care about either way if the masses get...
Reality is this.. we only have so long on this ride, and the bitch of it all, is that none.. NONE of us know how long that is. Yes, Sarah Palin may think that we need to kill off the brown people to make Jesus come back (not kidding), but reality is this... you, nor ANYONE can make Jesus come back. But you can do something.
1) Stop putting up with bullsh*t. Life is far too short. Bullsh*t covers a wide ride of things but seriously.. it's not worth it.
2) Put up with bullsh*t. Life is far too short people. Everyone has thier path, and you are there to enjoy the ride with them.
3) Music is the pathway to the soul... As much as you hate one thing, love another.... Close your eyes, get lost.... Drugs or not... enjoy the ride, and here is where I tip my hat. Gospel, Blues, Church, as much as I am not a church guy, I respect where I have come from... and that is the Church.
4) Do something shitty to someone. Yes... I said it... do something shitty. "Why would you say that Mike.. Dammit" I will say that because sometimes, you have to have a hard conversation... it will suck... but in the end,,, doing something shitty may change the people involved. And that leads me to my closing thought...
5) BUT NO Do something nice for someone. "Mike.. you just.. umm " yes I just said that. One thing I have noticed... overall.. was that people do not give a flying crap. This "holiday" season has brought out the worst in people... from the Bills in the Senate (more later) to people on the street.. Humans Suk. Take just 2 minutes... and well. Do something nice. Open a freakin door, help someone up the stairs, get someone drunk, get someone sober, just listen, just yell fire (if you get this right on), help someone... just be
In the end, no matter what you think, we are still here. You are reading this blog, I am writing it, and we are both experiencing it. Some time is left... if we believe we can change.
Til next time... Keep the Rubber side down.. and on this day of all days... Remember those that have left before us... because my Heart is with those... Somewhere... I hope a Rabbit Smiles...
Mouse
Yes... Yes I know. I should be writing more often... and actually this is why I started this. To give a vehicle to my thoughts. The reality? I've had no thoughts over the last umm days. Ok That is a lie... I've had as many thoughts as the LHC has produced power... Blog about that later.
So for this post, I offer some not so simple thoughts about the season....
It's no longer about the holiday.. I know that will upset some of you... the majority of you are Christian, or believe in the holiday season. Ju$t a hint about what it ha$ become.. it$ about well... commerce. Very very few people these days, and you have exceptions to the rule, no questions, but the majority is what you get... not what you give.
So I blog tonight with a simple message, one that may, or may not, resonate to the masses... but a message I really don't care about either way if the masses get...
Reality is this.. we only have so long on this ride, and the bitch of it all, is that none.. NONE of us know how long that is. Yes, Sarah Palin may think that we need to kill off the brown people to make Jesus come back (not kidding), but reality is this... you, nor ANYONE can make Jesus come back. But you can do something.
1) Stop putting up with bullsh*t. Life is far too short. Bullsh*t covers a wide ride of things but seriously.. it's not worth it.
2) Put up with bullsh*t. Life is far too short people. Everyone has thier path, and you are there to enjoy the ride with them.
3) Music is the pathway to the soul... As much as you hate one thing, love another.... Close your eyes, get lost.... Drugs or not... enjoy the ride, and here is where I tip my hat. Gospel, Blues, Church, as much as I am not a church guy, I respect where I have come from... and that is the Church.
4) Do something shitty to someone. Yes... I said it... do something shitty. "Why would you say that Mike.. Dammit" I will say that because sometimes, you have to have a hard conversation... it will suck... but in the end,,, doing something shitty may change the people involved. And that leads me to my closing thought...
5) BUT NO Do something nice for someone. "Mike.. you just.. umm " yes I just said that. One thing I have noticed... overall.. was that people do not give a flying crap. This "holiday" season has brought out the worst in people... from the Bills in the Senate (more later) to people on the street.. Humans Suk. Take just 2 minutes... and well. Do something nice. Open a freakin door, help someone up the stairs, get someone drunk, get someone sober, just listen, just yell fire (if you get this right on), help someone... just be
In the end, no matter what you think, we are still here. You are reading this blog, I am writing it, and we are both experiencing it. Some time is left... if we believe we can change.
Til next time... Keep the Rubber side down.. and on this day of all days... Remember those that have left before us... because my Heart is with those... Somewhere... I hope a Rabbit Smiles...
Mouse
Sunday, October 25, 2009
Day 1 on Year 32
So I finally did it.
For the last year plus, I have been debating starting a blog, and thus putting words to the random ADD that lives in my head. And I assure all of you... it's ADD at its' finest.
My friend Andy Sharp (blogging here: http://www.randomthoughtsinabundance.blogspot.com/) did it, and of course we have the band blog at forgivetherain.blogspot.com, additionally I have the photo blog at somewhere... I'll give that later.
I'm not sure what is going to come of this blog spot. The likely situation is this will end up being a site in which my ramblings will unfold, my writing will evolve, and with any hope, you will be entertained.
Some brief background to set the framework of where my mind is speaking from. Considering that those reading this are complete strangers, knowing nothing of me, I should leave the new reader with, at the very least, the feeling of where I came from.
In brief: Born in Crest Hill IL, grew up in Rockdale, IL, College in Dubuque IA, only to move to Rockdale WI and now live in McFarland. Married to my dream, in more than one sense; but in this reference, Jillian. I work the 8 to 5 as a computer geek, own my own Photography business, drive race cars, and play music with some of the most amazing people I hope you get to meet in your life. (worded that way on purpose)
Three years ago this year, I watched my best friend, and my father slowly die from ALS. My mother, who is clearly battling her own demons, is not a factor in my life; people make choices. From all the darkness, a great relationship with my sister has developed and I couldn't be happier with growing closer to her. I'm sure I'll write about it more, but I'm not sure which was more painful... watching a good man die a brutal death, or the selfish feelings I have of wanting him around, despite his suffering, to witness the music, life, and all else that has evolved for me. Very selfish indeed.
So not to make this first post too long and drawn out....
I sit here on the night before I turn 32. I have an odd combination of urgency to accomplish things that I dream, and a strange realization that I won't. As with everything in this world, time consumes us all. Tomorrow I will belly up to the bar (Sonny's in Stoughton WI Pops and I's home) and have a cold one with whoever shows up.... considering that when I was younger, I never thought I would see 29; but at that same time, I'm ecstatic that I have chips in the game. Coming to terms with it all is quite the mountain, one which we all climb.
So for tonight I will depart. Thank you for your interest in this blog. I leave you with some simple statements:
1) For those that think they know me... you will learn more than you really want to know.
2) For those that do know me... you will learn more than you really want to know.
3) For those that have no idea WTF this guy is saying... it will be fun to read/follow.
4) In the end I hope someone, somewhere gets something out of all of this, because in the end... all I can hope is that through some means.. weather it be music, racing, writing, photography, or just being there for any of you, I help. What else can we do for each other?
Till next time....
Keep the shiny side up
For the last year plus, I have been debating starting a blog, and thus putting words to the random ADD that lives in my head. And I assure all of you... it's ADD at its' finest.
My friend Andy Sharp (blogging here: http://www.randomthoughtsinabundance.blogspot.com/) did it, and of course we have the band blog at forgivetherain.blogspot.com, additionally I have the photo blog at somewhere... I'll give that later.
I'm not sure what is going to come of this blog spot. The likely situation is this will end up being a site in which my ramblings will unfold, my writing will evolve, and with any hope, you will be entertained.
Some brief background to set the framework of where my mind is speaking from. Considering that those reading this are complete strangers, knowing nothing of me, I should leave the new reader with, at the very least, the feeling of where I came from.
In brief: Born in Crest Hill IL, grew up in Rockdale, IL, College in Dubuque IA, only to move to Rockdale WI and now live in McFarland. Married to my dream, in more than one sense; but in this reference, Jillian. I work the 8 to 5 as a computer geek, own my own Photography business, drive race cars, and play music with some of the most amazing people I hope you get to meet in your life. (worded that way on purpose)
Three years ago this year, I watched my best friend, and my father slowly die from ALS. My mother, who is clearly battling her own demons, is not a factor in my life; people make choices. From all the darkness, a great relationship with my sister has developed and I couldn't be happier with growing closer to her. I'm sure I'll write about it more, but I'm not sure which was more painful... watching a good man die a brutal death, or the selfish feelings I have of wanting him around, despite his suffering, to witness the music, life, and all else that has evolved for me. Very selfish indeed.
So not to make this first post too long and drawn out....
I sit here on the night before I turn 32. I have an odd combination of urgency to accomplish things that I dream, and a strange realization that I won't. As with everything in this world, time consumes us all. Tomorrow I will belly up to the bar (Sonny's in Stoughton WI Pops and I's home) and have a cold one with whoever shows up.... considering that when I was younger, I never thought I would see 29; but at that same time, I'm ecstatic that I have chips in the game. Coming to terms with it all is quite the mountain, one which we all climb.
So for tonight I will depart. Thank you for your interest in this blog. I leave you with some simple statements:
1) For those that think they know me... you will learn more than you really want to know.
2) For those that do know me... you will learn more than you really want to know.
3) For those that have no idea WTF this guy is saying... it will be fun to read/follow.
4) In the end I hope someone, somewhere gets something out of all of this, because in the end... all I can hope is that through some means.. weather it be music, racing, writing, photography, or just being there for any of you, I help. What else can we do for each other?
Till next time....
Keep the shiny side up
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